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You are my addiction poems3/23/2023 ![]() ![]() No addict can get clean unless THEY WANT TO!!Believe me it's a very hard road to travel and a lot do not make it! I was so sick and tired of being sick & tired. Eventually I weaned off the suboxone when I felt I was ready. My doctor was monitoring my levels and checking my urines on a regular basis. It's a blocker and I could not get high with opiates while taking it. Some people don't believe in suboxone, but I believe it saved my life. When I finally was serious about getting clean, I went to a detox and got all of the drugs (mostly heroin) out of my system I got on a suboxone maintenance program and into therapy. I could NOT do this by myself! It took a VERY, VERY long time to finally realize I had a problem and I could not fix myself on my own. I totally feel for you! I am a recovering addict and thank God I have been clean since 8/2006. Just remember this I will always be your disease. So when you think I'm gone and you can finally be at ease, Well here I go now I'll just be on my wayīut not for to much longer cause I still have much to say Spend our life together won't that make you happy,ĭon't let those people tell you what I am all about,Ĭause then you'll find a way a way to kick me out I'll embrace you in my arms and I'll never set you free, I will turn you from everyone that tries to take you from me Then following comes denial, deceit, and lies I come in many forms, and shapes, and size You will lie to everyone and say that I ain't real,īut if that's the case why can't you put down that pill I've made you feel so happy but in the end you was always sad I was there for you in the good times but mostly in the bad, I'll take everything you got and still want something more I am smarter than you and I am in control,įamily, friends, and loved ones they won't matter anymore, ![]() I will always be here no matter where you go, I made you feel unaware, and I really don't care.I will never let you sleep or put your mind at ease, I am the reason you can't look people in the eyes I still have control I am your confession. Now you're the person you're not wanting to be. You never knew what you had you looked to see. You don’t have to be perfect And it doesn’t matter if you are smart Just open your eyes and open your heart. You are enough to make it Through anything. I don’t give in, I believe and have faith. Now I laugh because your eyes don't even glisten. No matter my struggles And I have many struggles I know I’ll be OK. You are so blind people have told you, but you didn't listen. I took over you mind, and that was your cost. ![]() You thought you were loved, but now you're lost. I make you cry because if I don't, then people wonder why. When he wraps you in his track marked arms, ![]() Thank you for showing me how important a good mother should beĪnd to never show my children the pain that you showed me.īecause I know there's a stronger woman in me. I can't promise that I will be around to see,īut when you get tired of that meth, you will see. This comes from my heart and every word of it is true. I'm telling you now that I am through with you. You give me so much hope, then tomorrow it's the same ole' dope phen. Today you will tell me that you are clean. You've told me to my face that it was drugs over me. More than 3 years later and nothing but lies. You wrote me letters from prison and promised the sky. She's had you in her hands for about 10 years,īut all of those years are nothing compared to my fear.įear of having so much faith in you and just being left crying. Her name is Crystal Meth, and I don't think she'll ever set you free. I really haven't known who you are for quite a while,īut I try to act tough, so I force this fake smile. I want my mother back who is this monster you have become? Most days I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs. I wrote this and put it into her mailbox as a way to tell her that I will have nothing to do with her anymore. It has affected my life in so many bad ways. My mother has been addicted to meth for as long as I can remember. You promised me riches, but you then left me poor,Īnd these are the reasons I don't want you anymore. You didn't even answer when I called on the phone. You promised you'd be there, but you left me alone, Like leaving my kids just to hang out with you. You made me do things I didn't want to do, You made me see things I didn't want to see. You brought me to places I didn't want to be, To lie to my sister and rip off my brother, Cocaine, you and I are through,Īnd so is the fake fun that I had with you.Īnd I'll never forgive you for what you did.įor you made me lie, cheat, swindle and steal, It's just so hard to watch the ones you loveīecause Mr. It's destroyed our family and killed our love.Īnd I've prayed for the strength to fight Who loved riding his bike as far as he was able On the first day that you will never see. ![]()
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